Sad, kind of...

Well I have officially made it through my first night and most of the first day without a DH nearby. He has taken a new job and left for MO yesterday, from there only the dispatchers know. Withthis company he is supposed to be home every weekend which is a big positive! I talked with a dear friend several days ago and she said I should really post my feelings, no matter what. I told her I would probably post when DH left, but now that he is gone, my feelings are not what I thought they would be. One of the biggest reasons we accepted a job with this company, aside from all that was wrong with the company he was at, was that there was a small chance he could get a run to UT and see family. Not sure how big that chance is, his new truck is apparently a flat-land truck cause it balked at the MO hills. But that chance meant a lot to him, his eyes just lit up during the interview when the recruiter told him there was a chance. For me it was the nail in the coffin so to speak, but I still felt like we were giving up a lot for that (not having DH home every night). I thought that I might regret it some, but now that the day is here and he is gone, I don't. I am hopeful that the chance might come to fruition, I know it would mean the world to him, and that is all that really matters. I know that he is doing the best he can to provide for us, so that I can go to school and be with Little K without worrying about other things. I have been very blessed to have DH in my life and double blessed with his and our children. The only feelings I have is that yes I miss him, but oh how I love my family. My big extended family, all the kids, my in-laws, and my family. My Heavenly Father has truly blessed me and He will continue to watch over and care for us. So there it is I have laid out my feelings, no matter what.